原来当布料是那么的沮丧.....

第一次出来工作，也第一次被裁退。我现在才了解当布料的辛酸.....每天都被‘裁’着....

我尝试去强忍泪水，但是，我还是很差劲....胸口也觉得刺痛....

临走前，把我的座位给拍下，留作纪念......

汉顺把我拉到一边，拍照留念.....
我还刚哭了，还好没什么痕迹.....

与同事们道别...... 在文仪和玮玲的房间时，我又忍不住流下了泪水...... 玮玲还了一个温暖的拥抱给我......

走到宝慧的位子，她双手紧紧地握住我的手时，泪水已经流到不行.........

文仪还特地送我离开....泪水盈眶地对我说：“芷苓...我很舍不得你...”

我说：“我也是.....” 呜呜呜呜....

在车上，我的泪水还很努力地流着.....

我告诉自己，我必须要坚强.....

浪费了无数的纸巾....

其实...没了工作是次要，令我最难过的是我不能再与一班好同事一起干活了！！！

认识你们，让我在工作的时候很愉快，时间不知不觉就过去了.....

我想，如果今天不是被即时裁退，我应该没那么沮丧吧！

同事们，天下无不散之宴席，我们再会吧！！！

我会非常非常非常~~~~~~~~~万分的怀念你们~~~~~

珍重

--Jennifer a.k.a. blueyfetes--
emotional still.....

Friday the 13th

Today is 13th of March, and coincidentally, it's a Friday as well. FRIDAY!!!! Do you know what it means?? Friday which falls on 13th, brings bad luck (it's a myth, a belief, a legend and I dont know where it came from). This morning, a heavy and long pouring rain fell. There came all the signs....

10am meeting. All staffs must present. From bosses to directors to scriptwriters to office staffs, all have to present. Then it started of sharp at 10am. Mr P. said, today....... I.... I.... and he continued with tears running down and lips trembling......

He walked back to his room, calmed down, wiped the tears, and came back out again... continue with his speech.He announced that he's leaving us, going back to Singapore (HQ), it's all his personal reason.... All the way he talked with his shaky voice, and the staffs started to cry.... followed one by one....

Later, he asked us to give him comments or whatever we wanted to tell him... allowing him to see our faces for the one last time..... well, at least for the time being....

I'm very scared to see men crying, or dropping tears. It made me sad and dont know what to do to make them stop crying.... However, my boss, was not holding back at all to us, dropping tears... I'd say, he really treats us like a big family....

I couldn't get away from the chance to comment him. He called my name finally and I had to stand up.... All I said was only... "My time here isn't long, but I'm really happy to work here, thank you"..... Actually, I wanted to tell him I'll miss him and I really like him a lot... A LOT!!!

I couldn't continued... as my eyes started to overflew with tears.....

The meeting turned out to be a teary and watery moment.... it was all filled with tears and laughter (for some moments)...


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After lunch, another meeting with the representative from SG.... a personal meeting.... It went fast, just 2 minutes. I was told, the company could not afford anymore due to the economy crisis, they have to release me.... today would be my last day.

WTH!!!! I was so shocked!! I thought I could stay until the end of the month (I was prepared and guessed that we'd have to be released), but NO!!!! It's my last day, TODAY!!! FRIDAY the 13th, full of bad outcomes and bad surprises.......
After I came out, 2 of my up-line, asked me to enter their room... and they started to apologize to me... and my tears started to fall like the rain this morning.... it's not their fault, at all....!!!! I feel so sorry and reluctant to leave them... such nice colleagues they are.... treated me so nice.... taking care of me all the time... loving me as if i'm their sister.... "I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!" I wanted to shout... but no, because I cried until I couldn't say a word.....

Both of them are very sad, me too is still feeling very sad now.... They have their red eyes (obviously they had cried as well).... and I'm now sitting at my place, writing an entry for one last time at my place.... so emotional.....

Here, I want to thank all my colleagues, and bosses, both Mr P. and Mr PY, I'm truly happy to work with you all. I will miss you guys very much. Hope to see you all again soon............




--Jennifer a.k.a. blueyfetes--
sad and teary

Now I realize....

Flowing my eyes and dropped some tears didn't make me feel better..... In fact, I have heart-aching.... I want shoulders now.... but all I could get is my pillow....

Getting a person to listen is somehow difficult... and that's the time my eyes started to fill with water and my tears dropped.... Ya, I'm just that emotional sometimes... till I lost control no matter how hard I try... Fail......




--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--
getting ready to wet her pillow

Sigh.....

Here comes my depression again..... When the night falls, when I'm alone, when I'm driving, it just comes to me... WHY!!! Why can't you just leave me alone???!!!

Sighs....... I need to shed some tears.... but it just couldn't flow to drop........



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--
drowning

Dinner with my 'secret admirer'

I'm officially a graduate (applause please.......) now (after my graduation ceremony haha), so, I had dinner with my friend to congrats my success. We went to Bubba Gump Shrimp Company at The Curve Mutiara Damansara....

It's quite an interesting place to dine at, because the interior design and decorations look just like a cabin.. This restaurant is inspired by the movie "Forest Gump"... so they have a few costumes of Forest and Jenny... Why is it "Bubba Gump" but not "Jenny Gump"??? Remember Bubba??? He's the one who suggests to go for shrimpping business with Gump.... so that's the reason...

This is the correct sign when you do not need their service.

Flip to this one when you need the 'cabin crew' LOL

Bucket full of a variety of sauce....

This creative menu of dessert is attached with a ping pong bat ^_^

Jenny's cute lil dress and shoes...

And these are Gump's...

Very cool and creative designs right???





I ordered this drink because it suits me perfectly. It's called "Jenny's Favourite" :D

And this is Cajun Shrimp.
If you like spices and hot food, this is ur choice.
I ended up 'raining' while eating this in front of my 'secret admirer'.
So...... embarrassing!!!!!!!! T_T

Not so attractive.........





The other angle.....

So!!!!!!! Seducing!!!!!! And this truly fills up ur stomach well.
A combination of mashes potatoe, 2 pieces of salmon, couple of shrimps and crispe.
Don't got conned by this photo.
The portion is enough for a big eater :D

I would say this is a good place to dine once in awhile, nice environment, special, soothing... price is more expensive than fish and co. So, here I thank my 'secret admirer' for buying me this meal...and so attentive and hardworking in searching for the book I want... As I promise, I didnt reveal ur identity... I guess this is ur reward then. LOL :P :P :P



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--
thankful

Some random updates...

This entry is basically about dinner+lunch=food.



Dinner at hmm.... this Korean restaurant....

Nice deco...

Like we've booked this restaurant... haha

A table full of dishes... ha ha ha

fried rice cake

steam egg with..... I forgot what else was in it...

Kim Chi Pot

A variety of side dishes.....

Vege~

BBQ pork....

This is the restaurant....

With that plenty of food, RM70 it cost. I think it's quite reasonable. :))




Then lunch in Sushi King......

Baby octopus again

Salad sushi

Soba set meal

Curry rice with chicken

Angga rubbing his head after eating wasabi. And a bit of Chua's face. HAHA




-The End-

--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

You thought u're a crab???

And you can just go whichever way you like on the road??

Just because you're more familiar on how to go in ALL directions of the road??

Or you thought you have more time and experiences on the road eh??

I hate you when you think that.

With poor manners on the road,

cutting lanes without signals,

driving in high speed when the limit is 40?

or driving in super low speed when the limit is 80?

And when the meter shows RM2.70, I pay you RM3 and you keep the change when I did not say so.

Even the money of an elder you want to cheat!

And now, I tell you, don't you understand what goes around comes around??

You take over without signals, you'll get it back one day.

You take the change and act like nothing has happened, one day you'll get it back.

And one day, others don't allow you to take over, you give then a honk because you think that's your way

Hello~~~? guess you don't understand the phrase

there's no responsibility where others have to give the way to you like you're the KING OF THE ROAD

and maybe, you have been used to bullying others

and once you don't manage to get your way then you lose temper

there, I'll show you my middle finger (Naaaaaaaaa)

not used to it?? you want to be a winner/bullier, be ready always to be a loser. So get used to it

Oh yea, I always want to win, that's the way you think of me

to make yourself feeling better eh?

Honestly, I do. Who doesn't like to win??

But it depends the situation too

To you, of course I don't feel like letting you win AT ALL

As I've had enough from you

Facing you, I'd have more than enough of encouragement to be determined

and keep you under my feet forever

because I understand the phrase "What goes around comes around"

and if I lose, I'd accept it and revise



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--
I'm determined. What can you do? Bite me