Friday, October 16, 2009

窒息

I can only express my feelings writing in Chinese now....

我觉得很难呼吸... 很辛苦...

其实也没什么大不了,可能是我自己过敏

也可能是我太介意

我知道10只手指,有长有短

我自问,我接受你的一切

只是有时候彼此会有点磨擦, 我是明白的

但是我真的忍受不了被隐瞒,被欺骗

可能你会觉得那是善意的谎言

但是你应该了解我啊

我再三不经意地提起,不是要证明自己是对的

我只是在给大家机会, 等待你对我坦白的一刻

但是你还是一再地说同样的谎话...

是我太了解你,把你看得很透彻; 还是你不懂得说谎?

我宁愿我盲目一点,麻木一点

就不会有无为的伤害,无聊的胡思乱想

我有时在想,太熟悉是一件好事吗?

反而造就成我的懦弱,在意,小气,野蛮,无理

也不敢把心底的话告诉你...

担心这个那个的...

然后憋在心里....憋得...

窒息



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I see some question marks and this could mean you're wondering something. No worries, for a great bright young lady like you the answers can only be positive ! :D
Have a nice week Jennifer !

Henri

blueyfetes said...

Uhm.... not really... it's really something very unpleasent... I just have to live with it or live alone forever....

U too have a great week! :)

Anonymous said...

I hope you will do realy fine Jennifer !

I also read your camera isn't in stock yet.

Well, in Holland there's a Dutch footballplayer(Johan Cruijff) who said the profetic words: " Ieder nadeel hep ze voordeel ", meaning: " Every disadvantage has its advantage.
Your advantage now could be that you have more time now, to learn how your camera actually works by checking following link to download the users manual for the DMZ-FZ35 ! :D Then when you actually have the camera you'll be able to handle the camera as a real pro ! Enjoy ! Henri

http://service.us.panasonic.com/OPERMANPDF/DMCFZ35-ADV.PDF

blueyfetes said...

Thanks!!! :)
Your message is encouraging!!! xx