有永恒吗？

I just came back from Griza's party, a little bit of alcohol, I'm so emotional again and can't sleep. I'm going to write again, so many emotional posts recently.... In Chinese again too... sorry to those that can't read Chinese.....




我是敏感的，

不是普通的敏感，

是非常的。

敏感是治不好的，

吃药也只是可以暂时制止，

之后就会复发，是好不起来的。

这个世界上，有永恒吗？

你今天对我说我爱你，

明天你可能会说我已经不爱你了...

朋友，

我真的真的很希望有一个很了解我，

纵容我，疼我，听我，告诉我，陪我，诚实于我，忠于我的。

当然，我也一样可以那样。

在下，有吗？

可能，你会觉得，我实在是too much了...

你顶不住了，讨厌我了，觉得我不可理喻了；

我想说，朋友，你可以bare with me awhile more吗?

我自己也不好受；

令你操心了，心烦了，麻烦了，厌恶了，压力了；

我还需要一点点时间...

爱人，

我也非常非常非常非常非常非常“西北”想要一个，

又或者是，

一个soul mate。

不知道的别手指指说我要求高，

我从没要求一个身家千万，样子长得像吴尊的；

因我从不奢求，也不喜欢帅哥；

不，应该说，我不喜欢五官长得像女孩的男人，

我会自卑。

自卑应该可以直到永恒吧？

我，

看起来很勇敢，很man, 很坚强；

其实我内心软弱，胆怯，漫无目标。

对，I'm lousy。

家人，

我很爱我妈妈；我只说，我不懂得表达；

也对她不客气，容忍，关怀；

看起来，我真的说不上怎么爱她。

我害怕，

害怕有一天她离我而去，

就像爸爸那样.......

什么时候想起，我都可以哭得眼红鼻涕流；

没有永恒...

我害怕，

害怕有一天地球不再转动；

而我也原地不动；

等什么？

我不知道。

我害怕，

害怕失去；

失去我所爱的，需要的，关怀的，忍让我的；

是我自私吗？贪心吗？

也许吧...

当太熟悉的时候，

要求自然而然地大弧度增加；

我的弱点，我喜欢熟悉，我的依赖，我的无理取闹...

我可以怎样？

我确定，这些关于我的，都是永恒的；

怎么改，也改不了。

你说，

我还有什么是永恒的？




--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

Ferris Wheel

We're in the same gondola,

side by side.

Saw the place that we used to go together,

flash back stopped by.

You whisk me away when you pressed you lips softly on my cheek,

I smiled.

High up on the top,

you were quiet;

I asked what's the matter,

you stayed silent.

A shooting star flashed by,

you quickly made a wish and looked at me;

your eyes are telling me stories, some sincere stories.

Phone rang,

you're occupied with the phone and left me alone.

About to end, I was getting ready to step out;

you came holding my hand,

looked straight into my eyes.

You're sincere, but it was too late.

I had a good time,

you gave me fluctuations and made my heart beat faster and slower.

You had the power,

I amazed that.

I kissed you on your right cheek,

felt your skin and smiled.

I left, with a sorrow heart.

You remained, with a question mark.




P.S. Life is just like riding in a Ferris Wheel. You'd never know what's gonna happen, what to see, what to meet or what to encounter while you're in the gondola. You'd be in ups and downs situation and the Ferris Wheel would not stop for what has happened. It will just go round and round and round......





--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

视网膜

视网膜，很重要

脱落了，看不见

五颜六色也都不见

在还未恶化之前，

可以动激光手术。

手术后，需好好照顾；

万一卫生不好，就会发炎。

药物如眼药水需准时滴，

需要给以充足的休息。

只是这些，

是不够的。

需加一点：

关怀

睡眠

营养

禁止一切：

飞行

烟酒

辣椒

好好呵护

视网膜就会复原

反之，

它会恶化

复发

甚至完全脱落

好好爱护，快快复原

我会耐心等待。



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

Alumni Dinner

I went for the alumni dinner of my uni, Liverpool John Moores University about a month ago. It's not something usual that I will do, but, it was great fun in the end. :)

I like to snap pictures of chandeliers now... haha

It was still CNY or just past CNY, I can't remember.
So we had lions dancing around~

Up onto the stage~

Our cute looking chancellor that looks like the KFC gong gong.

Love my Mr. Z.

Do you get what I mean?

Oh! 3 P!

I don't need to pay for this picture.
But it's priceless. :)

With Iqbal, our program supervisor which emphasizing 1st class all the time.

This is Denise.
She's also my colleague now.

Christine and Ken.
Nope, they aren't a couple.

YAY~~ I won in the photo contest.
3rd place ^_^

Aiyah.... where were I looking at....

"Ah Ma! Ngo duck zhor la" look~

LOL. This looks really like graduation pic.

The girls~

Another one with flash~
My camera's flash is not bad!

It's the game for spot me... or... spot us?

After the dinner, Hwee suggested to go for next round in Club 21. So we did. Yes, when it's time to party and relax, we go to the max!

This picture is so scandalous.

Ah Hwee and Ah Anne!

Oops sorry babes.
Too dark.

Go go go go girl!

It's even bigger than her head!

I'm still looking huge.
But it's ok, I'm still determined to lose. ^_^

They are the party girls.
A bit extreme kind of. LOL

Although it's quite blur, but I quite like it.
Uhm....

He's always the lucky to be surrounded by girls.

And another one. :)
But Zoe looks drunk. Haha

We wanted to have a group picture.
Ah Hwee asked one ang mo to take for us.

And he's quite a xiao one.
Took pictures while dancing.
Not ordinary dance moves, it was like swinging here and there!

Then one of his friend ngeh ngeh joined in.

But I would say he's quite good.
Swung until that way still captured a few nice pics.

See! wah~~~~

And one more pic before we headed to Zouk. Woot!
Eh, uncles behind, see meh see?
Never see lengluis take pictures before ar? :P

That's about it. I didn't bring down anything when I was in Zouk. So troublesome ma~~~
Ok, stop right here, right now. Ciao Ciao~~~



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

笨死了

我今天才恍然大悟

其实我才是最笨的那个

自以为是

被欺骗

被隐瞒

被遗弃

我想说，

一切都是我咎由自取

我笨死了

我真的觉得自己

笨，不够贴切

可能蠢和没脑比较适合用来形容我

我不开心

但我能怎样？

在这里写几个字咯．．．

我渺小得像一粒辰砂．．．

微不足道。

却不能随风漂流

只因．．．我太多负担和顾虑。

我哭泣

他人问

说了

听不懂

还鄙视说

啧

我哭

我的事

你问了

听不懂

是你的事

别发表

我不想听

也不想让自己变得更加更加的渺小．．．．．．．



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--

Lord Mayor's Parade

If I stop too long to continue writing about my life in Liverpool last time, it's getting near to 2 years and I'm about to forgetting details. Therefore, the journal of UK life continues.

This was about 1 month after we arrived in Liverpool, the Lord Mayor's Parade. It's their annual activity during the Summers.

Early in the morning, we gathered on the street to watch the parade coming along.
A helicopter spotted while waiting.

It wasn't far away from where we stayed.
Just across the street. :)

First that appeared were the policemen. LOL
They're in charged of "opening the roads".

Ooooohhhhhh~~ pretty boy spotted. In UNIFORMS!!

Then the horses and carriage came.

And more horses!

Then cute children in cute costumes~

And a few men carrying lambanana.

Cute horsie~~ but they poo while walk. >.<

And one very beautiful girl!
I think she's the Miss Liverpool.

Then some scary puppet came out.

A scary rainbowish puppet.

Then a scary traffic puppet. >.<
I assume they love to make this kind of mascot.

Hey kid, nice car and wig.

Cheese~~~ He smile at me. Hehehe

I think we've a lot of these during Thaipussam?

These are my favourite group of people in Liverpool.
They're all open- minded, knowledgeable and friendly.
Oh, very wise too.

YAY! pdsa rocks!

Aiyer! So cute!
Another cute fella than smiled at me. :P
Yes, I'm bragging about this. So? (I know, nothing to brag about actually. LOL)

Mr cool private!

Jane was trying to break his coldness.

Then he made a loud "left turn" and faced the camera.
Aiks, where the *doot* I was looking at??

The Media Studies+Journalism+army gang.

More peeps joined in.

In front of their truck.
Some don't know who "k leh feh" just joined in.
Ish~

Beeman smiled at me. (:P there I go again~ Lalalalala~)

Ho ho~~ hot hot hot samba~~~

More colours.
I guess Lord Mayor's Parade is more or less about colours.

With one of the scooter couple in scooter club.

Then Elvis Presley came out!
Oh, and two za boh too.

Choo Choo~~ Gong Gong Gong Gong~~ Choo Choo~~~

The "makan group"~

Perodua Kenari spotted! Snap a picture 1st of course.
Oh, that's the biggest Lambanana in town at the back. :)

Will write more and keep everything on schedule. I don't want to forget any details during that great time. Have to write everything down before I lose my memories.



--Jenn a.k.a. blueyfetes--